Friday, October 7, 2011

A Sort of Running Dialogue Between Friends

  You appeared to be rising, the shifting background would begin to impose enshrouding your upper half, leaving just one leg visible. Now at a glacial speed, now skipping a few moments & jumping ahead of itself. Your posture sustained the same face, you didn't seem to mind -through the wonder & perambulation of your viscera externalized- your environment acting on it's curiosity. From the start it liked to share in your breath, your inhalation as well as the pressure that bore no visible roots & was all surface: it's release of breath. The place where the two met regular enough to be taken for granted, but in your static pose both could relish the momentary touch. We could say, "Your habitat has really gone to some lengths to include you", but this would be a negligible response for it has always been that considerate.

Monday, September 26, 2011

Black Stone on a White Stone by Cesar Vallejo

I will die in Paris while it rains,
on a day which I already remember.
I will die in Paris--and I do not run away--
perhaps in the Autumn, on a Thursday, as it is
  today.

It will be a Thursday, because today,
the Thursday that I write these lines,
my bones feel the turn,
and never so much as today, in all my road,
have I seen myself alone.

Pt. 2

The stairs bowed
accepting my weight fully, even in their old age
foot fall after foot fall each more of a shuffle or a role like an old man heaves for breath,
  half bent over
each sounded their distinct timbre; I
didn't so much lean against the banister, as I used it as a balance
  while they where learning to be legs & feet
I lumbered as though on stilts either for the first time or that it maybe had been awhile
My right hand kept to itself hanging limply tossed this way or that, rolling fabric through fingers as prayer         beads or as a tutor correcting a pupil's posture, braces the the chest.
In the dark, speech & the light in my eyes demure: all I can do is feel.
Yes a drink of water is what I intend on but the wood is slick in socks
  & the stairs are endless, they bend & twist in to what?

Monday, September 5, 2011

Pt 1

With eyes open, dreams faint wisps
Role models in combination with familiar environmental decour
My heart slows with the coming day
Legs still at rest arms too: branching that haven't the inkling to extend
themselves, & what (?), into the sun.
I lay awake with no need for alarm
(The birds haven't come to my aid yet)
The window gives what is already inside; My imagination imparts the only definition 
there is: where there is naught, there suddenly is, and then again without reason
there is comfort (Hey!). Yes  things change
  with no word of affirmation nor objection
My stomach barks, how curious...the day before
  enacts the possibilities of today.

Amidst displaced mattress & covers, my throat is dry. I feel it is time to venture
from this carefully wrought mold
for it has done its job, given my form 

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

A Fictional Viewing From a Bedroom Door ajar

From within
A sliver, over cast: the clouds, a throne superimposed over a perspective drawing of a staircase, apparently leading to theater box seats.
Are we enacting Beckett's End Game or the individual vignettes of Foot Falls?
 
  I remember the antique rocking chair -that my step dad insisted we move from place to place- now only elevating previously worn clothing, a few church bulletins & an old shoe box (with who knows what inside) resting beneath it's seat. These things seemed privileged with all the anonymous piles simply on the floor & under foot. Just one rat materialized from amongst the detritus; I felt confidant as a young savage with a blunt spear; the thrust was reciprocated with the rat's leap -at least five feet in the air. I now stood atop the bed as frightened as the surprise the rat felt of being shoulder level without legs to rest on. It was found a few days later in the live trap down the hall, it was enraged at the thought of it's own domestication. A day later it was dead, from what I'd like to think internal bleeding, it appeared to be in obeisance to what we'll never know.

"Live your life from left to right."

A man stands leaning more heavily on one leg, a few cars lengths away from an adolescent girl
propped up on the edge of a backless seat, umbrella awkwardly held by both hands nearly against her bosom
it is open overhead, in her clumsy hold the stem gets repositioned, the canopy seems to swoon every now &   then.
They are both enclosed, in what is thought of as an old open-windowless factory
A bulb hangs suspended somewhere above, it emits a faint yellow light
The man does not stand away nor toward the girl, that sits anxiously awaiting something in his direction:
whether that comes from above or from the black expanse (that both accentuates & delineates what is there of the man) that -just for now- hermetically keeps this little nucleus from any further physical adulteration
The man's gaze does not seem to fall in the direction pertaining to the external inclusion of this weight,
  heterogeneously given off;
The direction may not be from without the nuclei, the blanketing darkness might be lending to a latency from either of the two constituents.

I feel that the umbrella is an upside down pendulum attempting to point toward magnetic north & in doing so, it alone keeps time, irregularly (but whose to tell the difference) counting down the minutes. What if it's accuracy depends solely on how the girl's actual time fluctuates: from now slow to standing to wading to when it catches the smooth surface & skips quickly three times. Do they know where their at? Is she glimpsing what she is to potentially become? Since there are no manifestations, do they supply them? Have they made assumptions... I mean to begin with, has the man taken for granted the questioning part of the process.
Yes, her limitations necessarily came from without to begin with.   

Friday, February 4, 2011

  The leaves & twigs, as I poured, clung to my penis: I was going to stick it in Miranda's ass, but then I (enrapt)  happened to find within the blankets & covers a large box of these natural condoms. We are in the front yard, on a sort of detached pateo under the canopy of large neighborhood trees, kaleidoscopic rays momentarily illuminate parts of our bodies. There are a few stairs leading up to us; We perform at the shoulder height of an economically sized man. This I suddenly realize, is not the first time we have slept together, she seems to be oblivious of this fact.
  The neighborhood looks perpetually maintained, but there is never anyone about. Most of the houses are stories with the bottom floor depressed several feet in from the upper slab's face. All their driveways are inter- connecting roads & small one story shacks occupy the in-between blocks, as though they were being protected; just as we are elevated from any kid's possible view whether playing in an adjacent yard or gazing out of their second story bedroom window. And none of the kids were likely to be ours anytime soon, because the first coming I feel was sheathless & now my penis is encased in this cocoon, it would be at home -with this disguise- hanging from a branch of an evergreen tree. It still feels despite it's adornment & she seems to respond to it as being neither ruff nor irregular but as something fulfilling just the same without it involving any future aside from the immediate (& that is immemorial).